Have you ever been so overwhelmed that you wanted to pack a bag and run away from home? Now be honest….I think we all have that feeling at some point…yesterday was mine. Of course I didn’t run away, but I sure did a lot of pouting…and poor Keith got to hear all about how life wasn’t treating me right! I am thankful that he is a good listener and doesn’t get caught up in my drama.
I went to bed early…didn’t even watch the Thunder game…decided the best thing for me was a good nights sleep. Slept like a baby…barely woke up when the golf ball size hail was pounding on our roof. Had a moment where I was concerned it would come through the window, but must not have been too concerned because I fell right back to sleep.
Then I woke up this morning and before I knew it I was reliving the frustrations from yesterday, asking why me? Why-oh-why-me? Really whining…sure God was looking for ear plugs! Sat on the couch with my cup of coffee and starting make plans to fix my problem….take care of it myself.
But, then…..after a shower and some reflecting on who I am in Christ…I had a good cry…snot was flowing everywhere…it was a quiet, alone in the bathroom, kind of cry….but I felt better. After that I plugged in my iPod pressed play on the Jesus Culture Come Away album and spent my makeup and hair time with God.
This is some of what I was reminded of:
- To keep my eyes focused on Him…he is the author of my life-Hebrews 12:2
- When I’ve lost all hope…to turn my thoughts to Him…Jonah 2:7
- That I am His masterpiece and he created me to fulfill the plans He has for me…Ephesians 2:10
- That He will be my Peace if I will keep my eyes fixed on Him…Isaiah 26:3
- Keep my life committed to Him and success will be mine…Proverbs 16:3
So, all that to say, while I had a moment….two or three….
twelve hours…okay, 24 hours of whining and frustration…allowing myself to feel overwhelmed…I love that God doesn’t push us away, but instead He pulls us in and reminds us of who we are and how much He loves us. Grace!
So, the next time you or I are overwhelmed and tempted to run…remember this:
Dear brothers (sisters), is your life full of difficulties and temptations? Then be happy, for when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow.
So let it grow, and don’t try to squirm out of your problems. For when
your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything,
strong in character, full and complete.
Feeling much much better today!